Friday, September 26, 2008

Nostalgia recalls...never mind!

A little breeze, orange street lamps, swaying shadows of trees on the road before me. It reminds me of the years in DPL. I thought orange nights were characteristic to Durgapur alone, but, no, here I was walking through my ‘para’ in Kolkata. You know what it reminds me of most? Last winter; City Centre. That’s when I started walking, abandoning my ‘symbolic’ Hercules AXN bicycle (remember, I used to call it my bike!). And who accompanied me during those routine evening strolls. And how this autumn breeze churns my stomach. Some ‘rene lacoste’ wrote in his blog about a person’s need to have a fellow person whom you can call up at any hour of the day, hug whenever you feel like, kiss every now and then. Finally, I don’t have such a someone, because, I don’t have the right to have such a someone. At last, I am ‘single’. Something I needed to be years ago. This is how I should be. The sight of a young couple (younger than me) making love openly in the bus seat beside me, shouldn’t twist and tighten my abdominal muscles, least of all, bring tears to my eyes. Mind you, I didn’t cry. A few tears just rolled down, and, then dried up. Like everything else. Since this isn’t the first time I am going through this, I know how to tackle this better. Or, was I better the previous time? Was it easier the previous time? Somehow, YES. 

3 comments:

иik тн3 iиcυbυร. said...

" making love openly in the bus seat "

^ That's a rare thing in India. You are lucky, I'd say. Catching somebody make love in the open is like seeing God through one's own eyes.

;-)

acidVox said...

i agree with nik.

jokes apart .. the fact that u didnt cry . just let the tears dry up .... i find that ... appealing.

part21 said...

~ Breaking up is a natural evolution when you try to figure out what you want in life. If you're with an individual who isn't moving in the same direction and at the same rate that you are, it ain't going to work. ~


well i guess this wasn't the appropraite thing here..but i felt like sharing it..


anywayss coming on the point..

i belive that somethings hurts up only till when we belive its hurting us.



belive me what i said may be confusing but it works..
it takes me outt of something which noone could even expect to get over off.

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